Hey Lady Lu…
“Call Me, Call Me” no she’s not, he’s not, and they’re not; even if they did I’m not sure what I would do anyway… if I were to win. Those that do call I don’t want to answer and do or don’t always the better scenario would be to die.What if there is some girl out there calling for me right now, how often I imagine Chrissy playing with herself and screaming my name. Sometimes I don’t know if my Chihuahua Braxton cares about me at all; he was crying all last night but not for my comfort, I think he wants his freedom from off the leash… we have so much in common Luna. “I Wish” I had someone, anyone, or at least the roar of the crowd but I don’t; I don’t even have anything and everyone I know seems to be enjoying that fact.
Three calls over the past few days; my grandmother called me for Thanksgiving dinner, you of course know what my answer is but two big problems, my mother and The Abomination. Speaking of which a few days ago I was in the shower so I didn’t hear my mother so you know what she does… bitch as though no one can hear her and of course I do and then she acts as if nothing is wrong when I finally answer, when the water is off and I walk out. Today was the worst Luna, until tomorrow right; I should really be a “Talk Show Host” so I can tell everyone, The Abomination makes me want to kill myself every time he speaks, today it was just raking though and I’m still here.
“Close Your Eyes And Wander” that’s your advice or really my advice but it’s not really working anymore when I have so many voices talking in my head. When it gets to be too much I focus on one story you know, hell I watched the movie “Avatar” in my head while I was raking and oh yes Luna it gets worse.
“Ain't No Sunshine” in my life Luna and to be perfectly honest my idea of love has become quite dark, the silence, the screaming, and her eventual madness. I know I shouldn’t expect someone to save me, how many times do I have to say no God, but I imagine someone calling for me because I am no longer calling for them.
Nowadays Luna I don’t want to know because I already know the answer, give them what they want and they’ll go away or maybe I should say obey given Ashley Graham here. On the other hand I want to be wanted and needed, “You’re Not Here” all the time but I want the world to be strung out, addicted to me, I want them screaming out for me but they’ve never met me huh? I have seen the behavior of fans for these superstars, I want someone like that, the question will be asked “How Crazy Are You”, imagine if I could get girls like this…
Three calls over the past few days; my grandmother called me for Thanksgiving dinner, you of course know what my answer is but two big problems, my mother and The Abomination. Speaking of which a few days ago I was in the shower so I didn’t hear my mother so you know what she does… bitch as though no one can hear her and of course I do and then she acts as if nothing is wrong when I finally answer, when the water is off and I walk out. Today was the worst Luna, until tomorrow right; I should really be a “Talk Show Host” so I can tell everyone, The Abomination makes me want to kill myself every time he speaks, today it was just raking though and I’m still here.
“Close Your Eyes And Wander” that’s your advice or really my advice but it’s not really working anymore when I have so many voices talking in my head. When it gets to be too much I focus on one story you know, hell I watched the movie “Avatar” in my head while I was raking and oh yes Luna it gets worse.
“Ain't No Sunshine” in my life Luna and to be perfectly honest my idea of love has become quite dark, the silence, the screaming, and her eventual madness. I know I shouldn’t expect someone to save me, how many times do I have to say no God, but I imagine someone calling for me because I am no longer calling for them.
Nowadays Luna I don’t want to know because I already know the answer, give them what they want and they’ll go away or maybe I should say obey given Ashley Graham here. On the other hand I want to be wanted and needed, “You’re Not Here” all the time but I want the world to be strung out, addicted to me, I want them screaming out for me but they’ve never met me huh? I have seen the behavior of fans for these superstars, I want someone like that, the question will be asked “How Crazy Are You”, imagine if I could get girls like this…
Okay back to reality my lovely Luna, I remember how it felt that day at the pool ~Mr. President... It's Fun To Dream~ having those teens talk to me. I remember how it felt at last year’s expo when people would talk to me, let’s keep in mind however it was a complete waste of time and I want to do it again. Now you know what I don’t remember; some girl calling for me in the woods, because it has never happened and what if my so-called friends found out, anyone…anyone?
Let me just state for the record how easy this is now that the porn is back but anyway here I am waiting and I hear nothing and this is a very conflicting feeling. No one is looking for me, no one is waiting for me; Luna when the call comes and trust me it will, I’ll wish no one was Calling Me…
LATE
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